So I decided to start a blog- never thought this is something I would get in to- but I thought I would give it a try! Those that know me know I am never short for words- or opinions :)
I labeled this "where she stands"- because I thought I would start out with where I am now- in life, in my thoughts... this is who I am and where I am. Currently- it's late and I need to get to bed, ha!
I just tucked my husband in and while I am on this topic- I am a newlywed! Yesterday was our 1 month anniversary! Life as a newlywed has been, well, honestly easy going is how I would word it. It's like we don't want to leave the relaxation of our honeymoon. We had a wonderful honeymoon and going back to work came too fast! Amidst getting back to everyday life came sadness that we just went through as a couple. My cousin who was expecting twins lost them too soon- so Justin and I packed up and headed out of town to attend their funeral.
The thought of losing a baby before you even get to meet is so sad- but she lost two babies, weeks apart, and had to deliver them both knowing they would never breath outside air- that is heart wrenching!
I am glad my husband was able to come to this funeral with me- to listen to my thoughts on everything and be my support. I also wanted him there to be a part of his new family... not quite the "next step" we had in mind- but being there is important. On our trip as I chatted away about my feelings - my mind couldn't help but drift in to the thoughts about my Aunt that passed away years ago. My cousin and that side of the family has been through so much. I remember my cousin getting married- and thinking that she must need her Mom there to help her with everything. I absolutely loved, and needed, all my Moms help for our wedding. And now, through finding out she was pregnant, the scare knowing things may not be okay, and then the inevitable loss-- I really wish my Aunt could be here- I know I am not the only one who misses her.
Well it's late and I have to go out of town for work tomorrow- that is completely different topic for another time... I would also love to post some information about the wedding too- recommended vendors, etc!
Goodnight!
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